Saturday, February 14, 2009
hi ppl,i noe its late bt there's smethg tat i reali nid to share.here it is,read it and im sure you'll cherish yr every moments in lyfe and not waste a milisecond on it.its an extract frm my ''angel's''(its to protect her privacy) blog.its about an interview she concluded abt,ABOUT her life.''i think im getting better at relating my experiences.Nevertheless,i still get emotional at some parts.Im permenantly blinking away my tears.Its quite embarrasing okay.I mean i should have been immune to it,and yet,i just never seem to learn.Each time i look back at my life,i would be astounded.It sounds silly, but it was as if i never tackled so many challenges....was it even my life?Other times,i get bitter and indignant.Each experience wiped away some of my innocence and in return,forced me to be mature,to apply critical thinking to everything.When i look at my other friends,i got a feeling that their untainted happiness is never within my reach,its in a distance,a thick white mist enshrouding it.It sounds really frightning but im deteriorating.I can already feel the difference.And nowadays,it seems impossible to get through any day without feeling pain or depressed.""I am struggling to be positive but things are against me.Im losing the strength to resist,i feel like bowing down to Fate.This world is just some humongous stage and everyone of us are actors and actresses.We switch between masks,don't we?im beggining to learn and its not my choice,It seems that people can stab you and at the same time,grin at you like an angel.There are so many people in the world and yet,i only have myself.I have to protect myself,console myself.Sometimes when it hurts deeply,i just sway my body,hum a lullaby and coax myself to sleep.It works this way,even if you are afraid of someone,or if they have done you a disservice,you must still flash them the most dazzling smile,you can manage.(even if you have to bit your lip)"now,do you hate life?do you hate yourself?do you despise your fate?do you still want to grumble all day because of difficult tasks?do you feel like ending your life?DO YOU?think about this question and to my 'angel',i'll always be there for you,for you were the one hu taught me the real meaning of life,of blosomming a friendship,of overcoming challenges,and of caring for others.i swear.Without you as friend,i dont think i would have been the SHAHIRAH i am today,and i dont think my inner self would be tat heart-warming.thanx so much for everything and i hope that our friendship will forever last,till death do us apart.=)you have inspired me with a whole lot of encouragement,now its my turn to give you some.REMEMBER our friendship motto?;friendship is a golden gift cherished above all life's treasures?in the past,now,and in future,you are my golden gift and i'll cherish you,friend.Nothing will happen so long as im with you my friend,NOTHING at all.Nxt time you feel any pain,think abt me.i'll be the ease to you pain.Nxt time you feel like bashing someone up,think abt me and i'll bash them up with my POWER!(wahahha)and finally,nxt time when you need a listening ear,CALL me up (you memorize my no. rite??),i'll be the best ever listener,i PROMISE.u played a huge part in my lyfe.....and i cant thank you enough 4 that.